the sky is always clearer on the other side

it was a quiet ending after a long 3 months. i had to leave the SYFC as of today since i wasn't recommended for the second phase.

it felt unreal, yet i already knew it was coming before i sat down for debrief. siva's eyes were yellower and redder than usual. and he kept trying to make me laugh.... wasn't much of a comedic person, but it puts a smile on your face.

i didn't drown myself in teh tarik, but i had lunch with my course mates one last time at jalan kayu. it was regrettable, but i have to let go sooner or later. i took it like a man, but my chest still felt like multiple organ failure.

you want to know the reason i wasn't promoted? nah, i wouldn't tell you just like that..... it still feels painful hearing those last words from my instructor. it's like your girlfriend saying: i wanna break up with you....

feels numb when you lose something you can't replace? yes... it's the only thing i will never be able to replace, for now.

i wonder what i'll do this holiday..........? after all, the sky is always clearer on the other side =3