what's worth my attention is none of your concern

thinking about what i was doing last friday evening, i came to realise how fragile my dreams are.

let's say, i want to be a surgeon. in a million ways possible, i can be one. but would i be successful and happy?

my mum always made jokes about surgeons, come to think aout it, it's really funny. imagine some guy with a bullet in his gut went for E.R surgery and 2 day after the surgery, he spoke to the doctor, telling him that there was something poking his liver. i guess you can imagine what's left in his body =3 and as for dad, he had more than a bad experience with surgeons.

but when the brothers started discussing about which university and what kind of career i had in mind, for the first time i really felt insecure. always, i thought my future was planned out nice and neat, but as you know the ups and downs in life can be very hard knocking. so to think about what lies ahead, i'm really afraid of entering the age of adulthood.

cowardice, fear or just ignorant? life wasn't going the way i wanted it to be. looking as things are right now, i really whished that i had given my all back when i was younger so i wouldn't have to live with a regret. when people say "a man without regrets leads a happy life." i kept my mouth shut because, if there ever was such a person, i'd eat my hat.

hooo kay, enough of that. recently, i've been rather caught up in games. Heroes V tribes of the east. i was so caught up in it, i lost track of time and forgot to prepare for my sorties. eeeew shit.

speaking of which, my final sortie for phase 1 is coming up this week. and its going to be a panick for me. i'm really desperate to get into phase 2, and i don't think i'll take it too well if i get phased out. sounds really pussy but, it's someone's else's dreams being shattered you know.

hope you like the new music i added recently. it's augustana, the killers, razorlight, and coldplay. any comments on the music please put it on tag